I know I'm immature,thats a fact. I know I promised you I'd change. Yes I did. I know I'm a little insensitive, but what can I do? But changing is not an easy thing to do, and doesn't happen overnight. So all I can do now is say, I'm sorry. The word used so much, you think that i'm saying it just to shut you up. But I mean it. After 4 months, wait not.. 5 months of living apart, it also seems like we're growing apart. But you are something I cherished with all my heart, not someone who is just another person. I can't really understand what you feel right now, and I believe you also do not understand what i feel, but I do know, that, if i ever lose you, i'd be lost, forever. I want this to change, I want to change, hoping you would give me more time, more chances, and not give up on me, on us. Changing for the better, to grow up and be mature, is what i've been trying. But till what extent? What is maturity to you? I do not know. I need more sign and hints. No one ever visits this blog, so I wonder when will you ever find out about this article.

Your stupid Panda,
Signing out.

PS: I really need to find a friend who I can talk to about these. My heart ache so much I need a drink so bad. Hoping that it would drown out everything.

Guess I've removed my old post to make way for my practical attachments which is gonna start on 4th of January 2010. This blog is gonna face some massive changes done by me especially changing the whole layout. Hope everything turns out fine. =) I doubt there are still users reading this blog anyway. Ehhe. So bye for now, while changes will happen soon.